August 2023 Update

Posted by CyanNarra - September 6th, 2023

August 2023 Update

Just accessed my dA account today, and found a comment in my inbox asking me to comeback, which was a weird thing to see especially on a site I barely had any reach on towards anything resembling an audience. I don't know if people on here feel the same but I do have a wider reach here on Newgrounds than on dA, I briefly explained over there my current situation and thought that I might as well talk about it here as well.

Bad News:

I've dropped my studies on Game Arts in Singapore. I was not able to overcome my homesickness and it affected my work. But I've been doing a lot more 3D even after everything, a reason for the lack of drawings.

Good News:

I've started working on bigger projects, alongside learning new softwares, workflows, and engines. I've done a bunch of script writing for Sorority, and world building for the bigger part of the universe of Redhill.
I've gone back to college, I don't really see this as good nor bad*, but some people might like to know that I'm still continuing my studies.
I am generally happy with where I am right now, been making good friends and living day-by-day.

Rant(?)

Reading the cute little post I've previously made on here, I'm glad to see that I've always been optimistic with things, although in all honesty I did not feel good, looking back. My pessimistic side tells me that I was probably just trying to hide or avoid reality that way. But once again, I'll be looking where the grass is greener.

I can't really promise posts, but I am sure that I'll be continuing my art journey. I originally had things planned out since my early teens, but with the amount of uncertainty I've faced in my late-teens, I don't want to hold anybody's hopes up. I don't like making promises I can't keep.

This is probably the most transparent I've been in a long time online. I've always spoken both my heart and mind whenever I post these walls of text, but I tend to omit some of the details out. I don't really mind who sees this I just want to get things off my chest I guess. Though, I doubt anybody would read this entire thing LOL.

Oh I forgot to add something, this isn't really a cry for help or a plea of some sort, I just wanted to branch it off the college situation earlier, but both of my parents have retired during my time in Singapore so money is pretty tight at the moment, the plan was originally to finish the course overseas and find work after; which you guys know didn't really work out. :( Which is why I've been saving a lot more. A requirement we have in school is to do two internships during our time in college; which I learned today is fully shouldered by us students. I've never really been a star student but I will try to maintain a high enough GPA and try to hit the Dean's List (fingers crossed 🤞). The teachers seem to like me, and find my constant beanie-wearing memorable, and I've been able to befriend most of my classmates so far which feels great, after all the loneliness I've felt away from home. This is my second chance at a final shot and I want to make it all worth and end it once and for all. I want to be able to do my own thing and not have to rely on either of my parents. Just a lot of things going through my head right now but I've always had a difficult time realizing the weight of things until it hits me like a truck in the future.